We have three dogs, including one 15 year old rescue. She's very infirm, can barely heave herself up off her bed (and not at all off a smooth floor), has accidents in the house and seems genuinely unhappy more than happy. In a few weeks, we are leaving for a celebratory trip to Europe for our son's graduation. We have a house/dog sitter, but leaving her to be watched over by a stranger seems wrong. On the other hand, when the boys went off to college 9+ months ago, we told them to say goodbye to her, because she was unlikely to live until Christmas, and she continues to trundle along.
Making the decision to euthanize her is really hard, because she still does have happy moments and does not appear to be in an immediate health crisis or real pain. She is not, however, going to "get better" from her kidney disease and advanced arthritis. She's absolutely skin and bones right now.
I think we find ourselves hoping that one morning we will come down and she will just have faded away in her sleep, but that seems unlikely to happen. We are going to have to make a very, very hard decision both for herself and what feels like a selfish decision for ourselves.
Lots of things suck right now in our immediate personal lives (it's not all bad), but this is the shit cherry on the sundae of suckage.
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